Title: sweetie

Gender: Female

Age: 21

Sun Sign: Pisces

Chinese Sign: Earth Dragon

Location: longwood, fl

um, well, im vegan. :) and i absolutely love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im eighteen, im a senior in high school in florida. im pretty smart… but not really. i currently have a 3.517 GPA…….

um, well, i get pissed off when ppl tell me being vegan is stupid b/c “meat tastes good”…. selfish. (sorry if that offends anyone, but it's how i feel.  i cannot stand how selfish people are).

i try to be nice.. it works out a lot…. like my friends and family say im one of the nicest people to  them…. but, to me, it's never enough.. so i still feel like this horrible person that just hurts others…


um, i dotn have any pets…. im not responsible enough to care for anotehr living thing.
 

i love music sooo much! it makes me soo happy, it's ridiculous! i mean, i can be having the worst day, but i just turn up the music (something nice like dido or bright eyes and turn it up A LOT, and just get lost….. it's the most amazing thing ever.  i love music SO much).

i love ice sakting. - not figure skating. i just have hockey blades, and go real fast! :)

um, im nervous about the future….. i fear a lot of things…..
im depressed a lot… or happy a lot. im never in the middle.  it's like the lyrics in one bright eyes song “you're either manic or you're depressed. w ill you ever feel ok?”
 if im happy in the morning - no matter what- ill be depressed later on… i balance out.. i guess that's a good thing because it works the other way too.

…. Um, yeah.. i have some obsessive compulsive tendencies.  i had thsi one thing that whenever something would happen to one side of my body, like, say i would tap my rigt foot, it'd HAVE to do it to my left one too.  i would just have to.  and it was really really annoying because it was almost EVERYTHIGN.  andt hen sometimes i cant get it to be equal again.  for instance, if some else touched me, then i couldnt make it equal b/c if i would touch my arm myself, then the hand t hat touched it would have done it and the other one didnt.  see? it was horrible!  but then my mother said i was acting like a person whos missing a chromosone….. so i tried really really realy hard to stop.  it's been about two years when i had that… i still have it.  it's not gone, and it still goes through my mind all the time, but i dotn act on it…… most of the time.  i try really hard  not to.  

sometimes i think that i only made it up … somehow.  becuase i mean, how could it go away ?  and it kind of has.  hasnt completely.  far from it.  but it's gone away since ive been willing it away - sinc ehte thing with my mother.

so, it'd be kind of difficult to not take into consideration the possibility that it was self-induced.

 i love math. it makes me happy… yo u know, when i understand it.

i dotn talk a lot… i do with my friend.  but i dont really have many of those.  sometimes i talk alot with acquaintences… that makes me feel dirty though.  i dont like it.

a lot of things make me feel dirty.

i dotn know what i want to do - career-wise. I think abnormal psychology's fascinating, but i dotn think it'd be good long - term. it'd take its toll on me. i love math, but i dotn know what i could do with it…..

i have a page on myspace….. it's kind of everything mushed together.. it's huge.  and, in advance, i appologize if any of you dont like something that's on my page.   it's  http://www.myspace.com/weird2twiggy 

hm, i'd like to put on a lot of things on here… so, let's see what else?

oh, ok, i put myself down quite frequently.  i dont know if this is good or bad.  i do it becuase i dotn want to be one of those people that thinks sooo highly of themselves.  i dont want to get a big head.  also, if i think lower of myself, i'd want to do better…. and sometimes, like when i say im a loser becuase i only really have one friend.  im not saying it's bad to have one friend….. i guess the whole “loser” thing comes from habit becuase i do it so often.  but its not even a choice anymore .  now i think it whether i want to or not.  but i wouldnt say i have especially low self esteem though.  just dont like myself much, but maybe i'll snap out of it.

…. i ll think of other things later on.  :)

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